Thursday, January 3, 2013

Memories

Hey, So here I am sitting in my living room and remembering things that I went through to get to where I am. I can't believe that I am going to be a Mom of two this year. When I was twelve years old it was a thought of being a wife and mother that I never thought would happen. Who would want this girl who had arthritis to be their wife? I was told that when I would be in my twenties that I would be in a wheelchair. That only made me realize that no man would ever want to be with me. Through I had a huge crush on this boy in my Sunday School class. He had so many friends in church and he had this smile that made me smile every time. He was so nice and sweet to everyone he talked to. I knew through we were twelve years old and in church that's underage to date. I was so excited when we both were fourteen at our first church dance. I couldn't wait to dance with him. Of course he danced with several girls and finally asked me to dance. Even now we remember the two songs we danced that night. It was completely magical to me but it wasn't to him. Through every church dance that we both were at when those two songs came on he would dance with me. We were raised to be able to start dating at sixteen. I couldn't wait for him to turn sixteen a month later then myself. Of course right after he turned sixteen he told me during a church dance that he had a girlfriend. I remember running to the halls to cry. I never thought I would be crying over a guy. We became close as we traveled back and forth to school and seminary. I just figured that we weren't meant to be anything other then friends. We went on several dates off and on with friends. Everyone felt comfortable with us and so we were often asked to come chaperon their dates. The summer before we turned 18 we were talking online when he asked me if I ever thought of him more than a friend. I was in shock and wondering why he was asking me this odd question. I am so thankful that I answered truthfully because he then asked me to be his girlfriend. We worked so well together and occasionally had our arguments. I received my first kiss at After Prom during a movie. But I dreaded going to college because I knew he was staying. A week before our one year anniversary as a couple he broke up with me. I was heartbroken but I knew it was meant to happen. Flash forward to the year of 2008. I was watching General conference on my computer in my dorm room. It was my first year to have my own dorm room and I was just relaxing. When I received a call on my cell phone from a number I didn't recognize trying to get me to go downstairs and outside. I was scared and nervous. Finally, Stephen called me and we just talked when I told him that I been getting a creepy call. I told him what the call wanted me to do and he said that I should just do it. At this time I had a friend on her way to my dorm to go with me to see what was going on. When she got there we went outside to find a flower on the ground. The flower led us to another which led us to another. I recognized the handwriting and was wondering what was going on. Before we rounded a building my friend said, "What if he is down on one knee?" I looked at her and got really nervous what was going to be around the building. There was roses in a vase with a note that said, "Will you be my girlfriend again? If you say yes and know who this is call him." I took my phone out and dialed his number to find out...he didn't answer. Finally, he answered his phone on the second time and he said, "Well?" I said, "I called you didn't I?" He rounded the building and I ran... literally ran into his arms. On March 6th, 2009, he asked me to marry him. Then we got married in front of family and friends on July 11, 2009. Of course we then found out we were pregnant on August 29th, 2010, with our beautiful little girl. She was of course born a month early on April 11, 2011. Now we are going to expect our next child. Tomorrow we found out if we will have another girl or have our first boy. I wish I could go back and calm my twelve year old self. I wish I could tell her that soon she will have the man of her dreams and have a beautiful child. Kendra

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