The Sickies

Hey, Sorry I haven't been posting a lot lately, life is just hectic at our house. Stephen was switched to overnights and I am teaching every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Then I had three online classes to do on top of all that. Well, one Sunday morning, I woke up and felt a little girl next to me snuggled up close. I felt her head and it was burning up. Stephen was at work and I decided to take her temperature. It was over a hundred. We decided that it was best to stay home from church and see what was going on. Ginny, fever kept climbing at a rapid pace. We decided that for her safety and my thought was she had the flu. We took her to the ER, as our walk-in was not taking any more patients. We found out that Ginny, did not have the flu but a very serious viral infection. We were told to keep her on pain meds and watch her temperature. At one point on Monday her temperature was close to 104. Stephen called her doctor to see if there was something we could do to help her. There was not just stay on top of her meds. I decided to stay home with her the next day and thankfully, she was starting to get better. Of course as she was nearing getting better, I started to get the worse sore throat imaginable. Found out, from going to the doctor's on Thursday, that I did not have strep but the same viral infection. I was lucky enough that my fever stayed at 99 and did not climb any higher. But man...did it hit me hard. Of course, then Stephen started to come down with the same thing. He had to call into work several days because his fever was close to 104 as well. We knew at this time that there was nothing we could do except just wait the illness out. Of course I was still struggling with an extremely sore throat, and taking care of Stephen and Ginny who were still sick. Ginny of course was better before Stephen and myself. Finally, on Valentine's day, Stephen was at the end of his illness. I was still dealing with the recaps from the viral infection. Which had decided to drain into my ears. Which caused me to have a double ear infection and a sinus infection. Thankfully, I can take some meds to help with those things. On the 15th, Stephen and I went to stay the night at a four star hotel while my mom watched Ginny. We decided it was best to celebrate not only Valentine's day but also our four year anniversary (which isn't tell July), as Miles would be only a month old. It was a nice stay at the hotel and we were even on the club level. We had so much fun just sitting in our room and watching cable (food network). We were still both recovery from the viral infection. Then on the 17th, we had the pleasure to go to our newest nephew Reed's blessing. Stephen was pretty happy to be able to be apart of the blessing. We then were able to celebrate his older sister's second birthday. It was so neat to be with family and watching Ginny play with her cousin Addie. Ginny of course loved Reed and just kept watching him. It made me realize how much I can't wait for her to see her own little brother in a few months. Kk

So many emotions

Hey, Not a lot people know this about me but I have deal with depression off and on through out my life. Before I found out I was pregnant with Ginny, we had a minor pregnancy scare. It was enough that I was super excited to become a mother. After finding out that my body was going through a fake pregnancy it killed me. I hit my all time low. I was just not happy with who I was and I could not be happy. Stephen was supportive and watched me many times just sit and cry on the couch or bed. So when I started having symptoms of pregnancy with Ginny, I did not want to believe that i was pregnant. It took two weeks for friends and Stephen to convince me that I should take a test to see if I was pregnant. I took it and did not want to even look at the test. I knew it was negative and I just took it to please everyone else. Stephen is the one who actually told me that it was positive. I had the best pregnancy with Ginny. I was happy and a lot of people could tell. Even some people said they have never seen me that happy before in my life. I never imagined that I would not have an easy delivery of Ginny. I knew that I would give birth naturally and I would be able to hold her in my arms, even breastfeed her. It started going down hill the Thursday before I had her. I found out that my blood pressure was high. Then we went to the hospital with high blood pressure that Sunday after. I knew i was already half way through getting ready to have Ginny. Then, I stopped progressing at a six. Monday morning, the nurse told us that it was time to have a c-section. I was crushed, a lot of my mom's health problems resulted from her c-section with me. I knew that I would never get a chance to have a baby natural. It hurt that I wouldn't be the first one to hold our daughter. She was born and her being stubborn that she is, she didn't cry. She just wanted to keep sleeping. When I finally was able to hold her, I tried to get her to nurse. She wouldn't latch on. I just remembered how natural and how easy it was for my sisters to nurse their babies. I was heartbroken to know that it was not going to be easy for me. The nurse checked Ginny's blood sugar and then whisked Ginny away. To shove a bottle of sugar water in her mouth. My mom said that I wanted to breastfeed her and no bottles and the nurse yelled at my mom. Ginny was then whisked to the nursery not allowed to stay in my room. I had to listen to tons of babies cry in the hallway knowing that my body was crying in nursery without me. I did not want to see anyone. I just wanted to be with my baby. She had many complications and ended up being transferred to Children's Mercy hospital. Thankfully, I was able to get out of the hospital. She never nursed and I tried to bring my milk in. I finally, stopped pumping at four months. I felt like a failure. I was put on depression meds and I was finally having my emotions steady instead of being all over the place. Then we find out expectantly that we are pregnant with Miles. I was in shock and scared. I was in block 2 of school and knew that I would be student teaching when Miles would be born. Then things happened and I am not going to be student teaching this semester. I knew my emotions are horrible with this pregnancy and will need to be put on meds again. It's sad to think that I am like this. I am greatful though for what I have. It's hard to say goodbye to Ginny every morning to go to school. Especially since she doesn't call me Mommy but Kendra. She calls her sitter Mommy and even Stephen sometimes. It's hard to not get mad and fustrated that my daughter doesn't love me as I thought she would. But I am always gone or tired to do anything. Or I have to sit on the couch to do homework. It's hard. It just makes me want to home school her even more. Kk

IT'S A BOY!

Hey, So just after the New Years, Stephen and I went in for my sonogram and doctor's appointment. We didn't have to wait long before we were called back. During the sonogram, the baby was moving a ton. The tech had a hard time getting pictures of the baby's face. As the baby kept a hand on the face. It made me remember of the sonogram pictures that I have of Ginny. She always had her hand on her face as well. When she was getting pictures of the blood movement in the placenta, little one decided it was time to keep kicking it so it was hard to make sure everything was going good. Of course she had a hard time getting pictures of the baby's feet. Then she asked us if we wanted to know the sex of the baby. Of course Stephen and I did want to know. We both had no clue what I was having. I had an easy pregnancy as I did with Ginny. Though there are times that I was sick with this one. She then said, "Well, here are his boy parts." I was in shock. I would like to introduce you to my son Miles Nicholas.

He is very healthy little boy. He is in the 87th percentile for height. The doctor said he will be a very good size when he's born in May. I told her that it was no wonder I felt him way earlier then I felt Ginny. I can't wait to meet my little boy and see his big sister with him. -Kendra

SNOW!

Hey, So as you remember Ginny's first snow experience was not a success. Well, we were lucky enough to get some snow on New Year's Eve. Stephen did not have to work till later that day as he was helping with carts that night. So, we decided that there was enough snow on the ground that Ginny could have some fun as snow was still coming down. We put her snow pants, winter coat, shoes, and socks on her hands. We then headed outside, well...she took to it. She loved being out there. Of course she ate a lot of snow outside and she screamed and cried when we came inside. We had even a family snow ball fight. Ginny tried to hit Stephen and myself with little snow she could pick up. It was a lot of fun.

Miss Independent

Hey, So lately Ginny wants to be Miss Independent. It can be frustrating for Stephen and I as she has to do it her way or no way. That means taking clothes off and putting on clothes. She still can't put clothes on by herself so it's a daily struggle with her. Then there are times when she will take her clothes off without you knowing it and put something on. As you can tell she still has a lot to turn about how to put clothes on. By the way that is her favorite shirt and we have to literally hide it so she will not put it on this way.

-Kendra